When you live with chronic illness it’s not always the physical actions that make you feel worse. It’s not all about what you eat or don’t eat, or whether you exercise, or take your meds. Often, the interactions and emotions you allow in your life can do just as much to leave you feeling just as bad as any physical illness. At minimum, these actions aren’t helping you feel any better – but most likely these 10 actions are making you feel even worse.
2 . Letting energy vampires suck you dry– are you surrounded by negative people? Do your friends focus on drama rather than on lifting each other up? Do those in your household seem to want to tear you down and make you feel worse? Don’t allow yourself to get caught up in the negativity of others. If you find that spending time with certain people leaves you feeling worse, you are better off away from them. If those people are in your household you may have to find ways to limit your interactions or even make a really difficult choice to find a way out of that household. It’s crucial that you find ways to surround yourself with people who lift you up and leave you feeling energized rather than drained.When you live with chronic illness, it's crucial that you surround yourself with people lift you up Click To Tweet
3 . Focusing on the past – I admit it, I have a problem with thinking back over things that have happened and getting hung up on what I should have said or done. I should have been nicer, I shouldn’t have said or done whatever it was I said or did. Don’t punish yourself for things that are behind you, just try to do better next time.
Focusing on “shoulds” is a form of rumination. It’s not healthy and only leaves you feeling worse. This was one of the primary negative thoughts I worked on with a therapist. When I began to pay attention to those thoughts I realized just how much they overwhelmed me and took my focus away from what really mattered. We can’t change the past, we can only move forward with the future.Don't punish yourself for things in your past. You can't change the past, you can only move forward into the future you desire. Click To Tweet
5 . Expecting too much of yourself – Do you set yourself up for failure by expecting only perfection of yourself? It’s time to start setting realistic goals for yourself. No matter what you do or how much time you put into something, it will never be perfect. Mark Cuban says “Perfection is the enemy of success” and he’s right. No one is perfect but we have this idealized view of other people because more often than not they only show us the best side of themselves. We watch others on social media who appear to have perfect health, perfect relationships, perfect jobs. We use this idea of them as the standard by which we judge ourselves. The truth is that we don’t know what’s going on in their lives. And, if we did we probably wouldn’t set them as our standard.
Even if perfection isn’t your goal, your standards may still be too high. I had to come to terms with this as we all do when chronic illness became a prominent feature in my life. Prior to getting ill I was able to do so much. I worked hard, I played hard, I was successful by my own standard and that of others. But, when I got sick I couldn’t do as much. But, I still expected just as much. That was a hard lesson to learn. It’s something I still have to deal with occasionally after over a decade. But, I’ve gotten better and I’ve learned that I have to adjust my expectations of myself to match reality – because I can’t change reality.Perfection is a goal that can't be reached. Set realistic goals. Click To Tweet
6 . Lacking personal responsibility – Do you find a way to put the blame for everything on someone or something else? Are your failings somehow always because someone else didn’t do their part? Do you refuse to make changes because “it won’t work” rather than admitting that you just don’t want to make the change? At some point you have to be willing to admit that you have a choice and you are responsible for your own actions and the outcomes of those actions.
Your illness is not your fault, but how you deal with it is entirely within your control. You can’t sit around and wait for the doctors to find a cure, but you can find ways to manage and decrease your symptoms. You can find ways to cope.
9. Defining yourself by your illness – In the early days of my illness when I could barely get off the couch, it was hard to see myself as anything other than a sick person. I no longer felt like a wife (because I didn’t feel like I brought anything of value to the relationship), I wasn’t a business person (because I couldn’t work). I wasn’t a student (because I had to drop all my classes). So who was I? I was still a woman who loved to read, who loved to learn, who loved my partner, a woman with a business, a woman who enjoys helping others. I was simply on a break. I was still a wife (I just needed a sabbatical). I still had a business (I was just on sick-leave), I was still a student (I just needed some time off). When we give ourselves permission to take a break, to rest, we can see that we are still the same person. But, even healthy people can’t do anything full-throttle forever.
It’s difficult to not get absorbed by chronic illness, to not let it become the entire focus of who we are. We have to find ways to continue to keep our identity. You are more than your illness, so stop letting your illness define you. Spend time everyday focusing on all that you are and who you want to be. Continue to find ways to stay connected (even in small ways) to the things (and people) that you love.
10 . Holding grudges – When someone hurts us it’s easy to hold that hurt against them. It’s a coping mechanism we use to avoid being hurt again. As long as we stay focused on that hurt, we aren’t likely to allow them to hurt us again. But, holding a grudge only creates more negativity, something you simply don’t have room for when you live with a chronic illness.
We have to learn to forgive, so that we can move on. Forgiveness doesn’t mean you forget what was done to you or give that person a chance to do it again, it simply means that you move on and stop allowing that person or event to have a hold on you. It is no longer the focus of your attention, taking up energy that you really need for better things. Let it go.
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Tracee Rohde says
Thank you so much for posting this today. I am having one of my really rough days and I really needed to read this. Thank you!
Melody Deese says
I really needed to read your list, thanks for sharing.
I was diagnosed with FM in 2011. I have felt bad my whole life but was still able to function. Then all of the sudden it was like I was run over by a truck. It put me down just like that! Still I was able to go for about 6 hours a day, before I ran out of energy.
Then in 2017 something happened with my back. I woke up and couldn’t bend at all.
I am still getting tests done on my back but they say I have degenerative back Disease.
I can’t do anything without the pain overtaking me. I’m still having tests done but it’s a long process.
I can no longer do anything. Even paying my bills, doing crafts, things I used to enjoy I can no longer do. And guilt is a heavy burden on my back when I see my husband having to do all kinds of things that use to be my responsibility.
It feels never ending. Thanks for the encouraging list.
I’m so sorry you are dealing with all that. I totally understand the guilt and the feeling of having everything taken away. I hope they can find what’s causing your back issues and get the pain under control so that you can get some of your life back again.