Pain is kinda like a nagging child. “mommy…mommy… mommy…mommy”. Those of us with chronic pain learn to ignore it the same way most parents can tune out that nagging, but eventually it just gets to be too much and you scream “WHAT DO YOU WANT!”
Life without remission is a funny thing. Kind of like going for a swim, having someone push your head underwater, hold it there, and just when you think they’re going to let you up for some air–they don’t. And you don’t die. You just…sort of drown for a long time.
And after a while the panic of drowning just stops. And the fear stops. And you just sort of wade there, in the water, thinking well, I guess I better cancel my lunch plans.
Chronic pain is like a child nagging mommy...mommy...mommy. When we live with chronic pain we learn to tune it out, to ignore it the way parents can tune out the nagging. Eventually it gets to be too much. Click To Tweet
If I follow through on the screaming baby analogy I’ll go so far as to say we probably shouldn’t get used to it too much. After all, pain is our bodies way of telling us that something is wrong. However, for those of us with fibro that something is often just that our pain sensor is broken. It’s kinda like when you have a short in the “check engine” light on your car, so it’s always on even when there’s nothing wrong with your engine.
Similarly, I was thinking today that chronic pain is like a nagging child in the check-out line. Mommy may I please have a candy bar (replace candy bar with one of our well-guarded and often rationed migraine meds). Eventually, the level of nagging just reaches a point where you have no choice but to give in. Often for the migraines I am reminded of Elaine on Seinfeld and “Are you sponge worthy?” “Is this migraine Relpax worthy?” or am I going to have a worse one later and need that pill worse?
Living with chronic pain often does feel like we are drowning, yet at the same time oblivious to the drowning. We just get used to it. And eventually, if we are lucky, we learn how to kick our legs and wave our arms so that we manage to tread water and avoid actually drowning, but it’s still difficult and it’s not really fun and we’d love it if someone just jumped in and rescued us, but it’s not likely to happen. So, we just keep kicking and waving our arms and screaming like a baby, and we do our best to get through the day.