Are you bored yet? It’s a serious question. I think one true sign of how sick most of us are is that fact that we can continue to stare at the wall and NOT be bored. We really do feel that bad. When I finally started improving almost 3 years ago, friends started asking “So, when are you going to go back to school?” and I didn’t have a good answer. Yes, I was feeling better but 1) I wasn’t sure how long it would last. 2) I was scared it wouldn’t last or that adding stress/ pressure to my daily routine would cause my pain and fog to return to the previous levels 3) I wasn’t bored yet. I think I felt like I was just starting to get caught up on the previous couple of years, and until I was feeling caught up I didn’t have room to be bored, which meant I didn’t have room to add anything extra to my life.
All that brings me to this week’s Sunday Inspiration post. The post is from the MECFSBlog, and it’s titled “You get to the point when….“.
“A long time ago I asked a friend how they knew when they were getting better from ME.
They said: “I dunno…I started to get bored I suppose.”
My friend has had CFSME for a while. In this case they were talking about a recovery that they made before their last ME Meltdown which has polaxed them in various ways for the last few years….
It is in conversations like this one that I learn most about what this illness is and find most support.”
I’m not sure that being bored always means we are getting better. Sometimes, it just means that we are bored of our life as we know it. It just means that something needs to change. In her post she goes on to talk about how certain doctor visits leave her wondering why she’s even going when they are doing nothing for her and all it does is interrupt her day. I can identify with that as well, I have several doctors I’ve stopped going to because they aren’t helping me; and in some cases, just the idea of going to those doctors was causing me stress.
So, is it time to try something different? Yes. I think when you reach a point where you are bored in the sense of wanting something to do, it’s time to do something different. It doesn’t necessarily mean you are totally better, but it might mean you are better than yesterday. The big thing is that it might just mean it’s time to try something different. It might be that you are ready to make a change in some way, whether it’s picking up a new hobby to fill your time, or finding some way to help yourself or help others. Or, it might be that as the definition of the word “bore” says you are just “wearied by the dullness and tedious repetition” of your illness.
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So, are you bored yet?
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